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Chance encounter

2011-12-06T00:37:00.001+08:00

It's been awhile since. Looks like the intervals between posts are getting longer and more irregular.
Everything at Roomorama is going fine, although quotas are getting harder and harder to reach. But other than that aspect and the structure-less concept of the current company, everything is going well.( Although I should be more pro-active in my aproach)
I am having lots of business ideas and I'm getting a few friends in to develop them further. Most involved IT and apps development. If we can pull it off in South East Asia, it'll be awesome. The market have lots of potential and we definitely hope to get the first mover advantage. Let's all pray things will be good this time round.

Shot a wedding for a JC friend, photos still not done yet. Done a wish delivery for Make a Wish Singapore over the passed weekend and it was great! Got to go onto all the awesome rides in Universal Studios Singapore and have VIP access throughout all thanks to the relationship between MAW Singapore and USS at RWS. Everyone was like queeing for the rides but we simply just " cut " them and go ahead o the queues!!!!
But the price for a VIP ticket is about 6 times the normal price I think. The wish included an IPad surprise as well which we felt quite bad making the wish child cry a little because she was not able to solve the riddle we had in place for her.

That done, I'm now doing my ICT, thus my quota for this month will be badly affected.
And then there was the chance encounter last Sunday when I was shopping for stuff at JP. While I was exiting a particular store, I saw her walking in my direction and accompaning her was another girl. I was totally taken by surprise and I didn't know what I should do at that point in time. Should I say hi or should I just walk away. I looked in the opposite direction as we brushes passes each other. The furthest distance in the world is I was just there but she'll never know. She looked fine and happy. Nothing much was changed I guess. Still looked pretty much the same way I remembered. 4 years and 2 months! That was how long it took for someone living in the same general area to have a chance encounter like this. So so long.
I didn't know what to say, so I followed awhile before leaving.
I guess it's enough just to have a look and know that everything is fine and good for her.

I really hope you are happy always...

Random stuff

2011-10-17T00:25:00.001+08:00

Mayday

2011-05-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Gave my virgin vote in GE 2011
Started work with Roomorama.com
Going for Jetstar interview in June

Now in detail.

This GE will be remembered as the GE of modern Singapore. As much as there are the cries of a need for opposition voices in parliament, the PAP still won majority of the seats. Statistics aside, PAP still has the say the next 5 years. This is the GE whereby it serves as a wake up call for the government. A modern society doesn't just look at economic progress as the only factor for choosing who to govern, it's much more complicated than that, and the PAP definitely realized it this time round. There may not be a next time if they slip up again.
The feeling on the ground is one of the people feeling unhappy in that as much as the head is leading, the body is trying very hard to keep up. and if a balance is not maintain, the only outcome is breakdown.
The new cabinet has 11 new postings in 14 ministries. Is that a signal of transformation? Does having a revamp of cabinet posting changes anything? Essentially, the government has done well and they do have track records to prove. I believe what people want is for the people in power to built upon those success and provide a more balanced equation of happiness vs progress. It's not easy to achieve, and achieving it will justify the hefty ministers' pay.
Roomorama, still have trouble pronouncing the word, is an online start up. I'm doing business development for them. Frankly speaking, I know nuts about business. But I guess I'll need to start somewhere. Been rejected frequently due to a lack of working experience. Therefore when the opportunity arise, I didn't have to think much, plus the conditions are pretty okay I guess. Two weeks into it, still not really settled down as they are in the mist of getting a new office space and staff, so things are pretty confusing to begin with.
The Jetstar offer came as I signed the contract with Roomorama. What great timing! The selection process is some what same and different from SIA I think. Let's just see where I'll go with this opportunity.

May is Audrey's birthday. Wish her a happy belated birthday and may all her wishes comes true.

2011-04-26T15:58:00.000+08:00

Of Passion

Of Hope

Of Love

Pray For Japan

2011-04-08T02:09:00.002+08:00

2011-03-18T16:01:00.003+08:00

Sweet memories of Korea trip.
Simple yet long lasting.

Year end

2010-12-30T18:14:00.003+08:00

It's the end of 2010.
1/1/11 is coming.

The year 2010 was not bad.
Nothing really fantastic happened but nothing bad happen either.
I guess nothing bad is a form of good.
This year saw a pretty significant transition in my life.
Officially done with schools.

I've managed to grab my honours, second class lower division that is.
First half of the year was rather forgettable. Ashton's birthday in April, did a photo shoot for NUH in march, went to South Korea in June right after my exams. My D80 got fried while on loan to Andrew but manage to salvage it in the service centre. Hit the car's butt for the first time, which is still not repaired. Finally got my iPhone, although the novelty has wore off already. Applied and employed at Apixels photography.
That's about summed up he significant events in 2010.

Still at Apixels for the time being, looking for new job now. One that's more serious and with a better package and with a better time schedule. Plans are on the way in the making, so 2011 will be an interesting beginning.

Another Xmas come and gone. It was a good Xmas. I've enjoyed a musical directed by Derrick at his church's Xmas service. Met lots of long lost friends and it's nice to know everyone is doing really well.
Some are chasing dreams, some studying overseas while some have great plans ahead
good luck people! Lets work hard together.
I've got everyone a give back home, giving feels better than receiving. I just regretted not being able to return more to those in need back in society. I need to improve on that next year.

Got Audrey a nice gift too, but I've decided against giving it to her after listening to something Lay Kwuan was telling me while we were catching a movie on Xmas night. She was rather disturbed by her ex boyfriend who's not able to move on while she already has. A very similar situation to mine. I've always ponder about this. I felt that by doing what I did, I was holding on to a hope. But I wonder how she feels. Guess it weighs more when this was narrated by another person.

I think this is god's way of dropping hints to me that I'm doing something wrong and should change in future. Which is why I've decided to keep the present this year round. I may not be able to move on nicely, but I should never hinder/bother/disturb her with my inability. It'll only leave a distasteful mark in life, something that I know but hearing it from someone else somehow makes more sense than my inner thoughts.
So I decided to keep the stuff locked up in my box of memories. Whether or not I get to meet her again in any circumstance, I should keep it to myself and set her free.

Life will only get better if you keep trying to improve it.
I believe I'll be able to make a good future ahead.

Time travel

2010-12-06T23:59:00.004+08:00

Into the third month at Apixels, getting used to the work, irregular schedules, and the " interesting people ". The work place environment is good, no difficult person which I cannot handle. Still doing pretty much the same stuff after two months, which is not what I anticipated. Was hoping to be able to learn much more than the current level. What they have is experience which needs to be shared, but not so much yet. I can ask alot but without the experience, it's not enough, not happening fast enough.
Finance is tight. Got lots of bills to pay, more than half the salary goes to bills and parents' allowance. This is not the way to go. I need to be financially more stable to pursue a passion like this. Working for people to achieve this dreams is not going to allow me to support a family and be financially free.
I think i'm going to leave Apixels soon or later, probably sooner and go back to the finance sector, earn my capital so as to go after my goals. Everything revolves around money. Without it, everything is harder. I just hope it'll be a good closure to 2010, and a brand new start to a new decade.

Did some cooking for gatherings and received pretty good comments. It's a joy to cook for people and and they appreciates it. Hope for more this festive season!

Was watching Fringe season 2 White Tulip episode. It's about time traveling to correct a wrong, to save a love one, to erase a " regret " . Asked myself what I want to do if I've got such a chance to go back and redo something in my life i regretted deeply and something I can do better, the first thing which came to mind was year 2007. Go back to 3 years ago and start over from there. Many things happened that year. After I finish my NSF days, working at fortis, getting my first camera, meeting Audrey and of course my studies.
I wold want to establish strong contacts with the people at fortis, I would want to do more with my photography, I would want to study smarter and harder and most importantly, I want to treasure Audrey . I can go on and on about what/how I would have done better with her, so many things I want to redo, to make things work between me and her.

Time travel don't exist in my lifetime.
I can only imagine.
Hope you're doing well.

First mobile blog

2010-11-03T16:59:00.005+08:00

first time blogging on mobile..kinda cool :) reason being..damn computer is down! like dunno how many million times already..give up..gonna get a new one once i get my pay..
been awhile since last entry..now doing commercial photography at apixels..being an apprentice is tough..but cant give up the chance..the most difficult part is the waiting and not doing stuff related to photography..like now..waiting for client to approve on a simple shoot can take forever..and in between waiting..there's nothing we can do..well other than bitching about it..

But i've indeed learn quite alot in just one month's time..how to deal with people/talents..lightings..this experience will only benefit me in the future when i've the capital to start my own biz..
the most interesting thing to note is that i'm assigned to SIM's casting call ad for the following year..such is life...coincendence..oh well...
kinda miss school too..will be doing CFA later probably register in dec for june's exams..so will be doing some studying again :)

planning to go for a long trip some time next year..still trying to link the places i wanna go..somewhere less humid than singapore..haha..saving hard now..

19 minutes have passed since client's last email..there's still no reply !
and 19 minutes will become a few hours..damn..almost OT every..driving me nuts..dunno if i can take this for how long more..
get back to work for now...........

2010-08-25T00:45:00.001+08:00

Optimism

Optimistic about everything.
Opportunities are plentiful.
Only goal is to be successful.

updates

2010-06-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

back from a three month hiatus..
briefly-
March till May was all about exams preparation and of course, the final exam of my boring university life.
Still not too sure about how I fare, a bit of confidence yet lingers some insecurities. But all that is past now and what's important is the future. I am currently looking for some form of overseas internship opportunity in either banking and finance service, marketing and business or advertising. Either that or I'll be doing some form of photography, probably as an assistant for some pros. not looking to jump right into a fixed nine to five job yet, as I'll not be able to get anything good out of it. Am fighting the constant battle of money vs passion. Whether I should be doing a job that I like or a job that is good in everyone's eyes. Two old folks to be taken care of here, can't be selfish, yet the urge to be in the creative business is so tempting. The freedom to pursue one's dreams and passion is something so simple, yet so complicated.

No one knows what I want, only I know.
Yet it's just so hard to make a decision. I know I just need to make that decision and I'll stick to it through the end, that ever so difficult first step. (千里之行，始于足下)

Maybe a few years out alone will hone my decision making.

Just came back from South Korea earlier this month. Was a good trip, not fantastic, but certainly one to remember for years to come. A snippet of my trip will follow later. Miss the kimchi, miss the weather, miss the minbak, miss the driving in jeju-do, miss the beautiful legs, miss being on a relaxing trip. Will be looking to go back South Korea in the other seasons and also more trips in future. Realised that I really love travelling, not just because we can go out and have fun, but more of being able to see new/different things/places and experience things that I never did in the past. Really enjoy the experience and I'll follow up with the places that I've decided to visit before I die.
And this is one other reason I cannot just do what I want. I need to plan, need to save up for these trips. If I were to become a photographer, will the income be able to cover all these things I've in mind?

2010-03-16T02:24:00.004+08:00

When familiarity hurts, you know it's time...

looking out of the window...
blur as it is...now
what lies beyond...
only time will tell...

miracles do exists...
but only the faithful knows where it is...
and when familiarity hurts, you know it's time..
it's time to move on, to make your own miracles

Heavy hearted.......

2010-02-17T02:02:00.003+08:00

Been busy..prelims is round the corner..in march..
working hard towards it..done a couple of wedding and a corporate shoot for NUH..

Ashton was hospitalised..some unknown disease..but doctors guess it something that attacks the white blood cells..seeing him in tubes..and still playful at the same time..such is his strength to fight even at a small tender age..everything is more stable now..but reviews still have to be conducted..doctors fear the jab they gave him might have side effects on the long run and that he may have to be on medication for long..but for now..everything seems fine..and i noe it'll be ok..it just have to be..
on the lighter side..he has been through his first LNY..receiving hugs and loves and of cos lots of ang pao..

Been watching 咖啡王子一号店..really like the show..maybe it's the rich's lifestyle tt attracts me..i've been poor for too long..haha..but really, it's the simple sweet relationship between friends and lovers..and the friendly family ties that accompany the male lead..it's something i look forward to..it may be fantasy..made up...but to have a goal is good..and it's not totally impossible..go eun chan portrayed by yoon eun hye is really sweet too..it's really hard to find someone lidat in reality..which made it fresh and refershing...

lastly..been feeling heavy hearted the past couple of days..week....it's that general feeling of something is wrong in your heart..can't explain...but just not right..close to a heartache..but not close enough..not that i've got anyone new..rather..i dunno..

she's been gone for 3 years now..time flies..when you're alone..faster than you realise..faster than you can react..hmmm..still misses her at times..wonder if it's becoming a habit..if it is..den it's bad..cos i'll always remember this phrase from my primary school teacher..

"when you remove H...you still have ABIT...when you remove A...you still have that BIT...even when you shake off B...you still have IT..never start a bad habit...it'll be very hard to remove.."

will be busy again starting today...back to school..back to mugging..all coming to an end..end of studies..wads next..i wonder.....

2010

2009-12-31T22:51:00.003+08:00

another year passed..so quickly..it get faster every year..
new year resolution..
-graduate with at least a second upper..
-make more money..
-graduate trip to Europe..
-meet new people..make new frenz
-further my studies??
-i still want my iphone..
-be friends with her again..
-workout the body..
-eat less..
-have something memorable to look back to..

Sent her a Christmas card this year..went missing last year as i was working and everything was still in a mess..just wanna keep in touch..nothing much else..everywhere is crowed now..hope she's fine..

been busy organising meet ups with people..meeting up is good..makes me realise it's time to wake up my idea..haha..no more in school..need to start planning for future..the thing about future is you know not what will happen..if that's the case..then how to go about planning for it? everyone's going aboard..wonder when it's my turn..was rather shock to know one of my fren decided to call it quits here and go overseas for good..at least for now..to leave everything behind and go to a new environment..not easy..
Economy's picking up..hope it'll be good news for everyone next year..
I still don't see myself working for others..hmmm..strat a business then..lots of ideas..but lack the doing it...will see..
Ashton is starting to mumble stuff already..very soon he'll be calling daddy mommy..life is so simple actually..why do we complicate things when we eventually grow up...heavens should be filled with babies and children..only then there wont be complicate adults to complicate life..
need to look for 2 picture of him to contest in some cute baby competition..hmmm..gotta take more photos of my cute nephew then =)
Life should be simple..

Maybe i've been complicating things myself..should look at things in different perspective..maybe been looking at the complicated side of things..and everything just seems so impossible..giving up at times..i'm still looking for a worthy charity organisation to work with..was helping out at MAW..but things weren't what i expected..nothing wrong with MAW..just feel it's not a long term thing at MAW..

New year's eve programme really sucks..need to find some entertainment for now..

Happy New Year people..have a great one ahead..

一半

2009-11-17T00:05:00.003+08:00

一直等一个人等了很久

这一场独角戏是很寂寞

春夏秋冬我的窗口只有风经过

爱很深有多深我也不懂

你走后我的心变得脆弱

听一首歌也觉得痛

但我谁也没有说

右边的座位右边的枕头

都已经空了那么久

为你守候那是因为我已经看透

没有你的爱这个我只是一半

不哭了不笑了

为谁努力我也不明白

没有人能取代一个圆的另一半

我固执的等待等风再把你带回来

爱很深有多深我也不懂

你走后我的心变得脆弱

听一首歌也觉得痛

但我谁也没有说

右边的座位右边的枕头

都已经空了那么久

为你守候那是因为我已经看透

没有你的爱这个我只是一半

不哭了不笑了

为谁努力我也不明白

没有人能取代一个圆的另一半

我固执的等待等风再把你带回来

只有你的微笑能让我心安

只有你的拥抱可以把我填满

只有你手里的那一把钥匙

能把心打开

没有你的爱这个我只是一半

不哭了不笑了

为谁努力我也不明白

没有人能取代一个圆的另一半

我固执的等待等风再把你带回来

a trip down memory lane

2009-10-11T00:29:00.002+08:00

a trip down memory lane on Friday brings back plentiful of memories from the now distant past...

strangers pack the streets..area revamped..same place new feelings...
what started out as something simple 2 years ago has etched a powerful image in my heart and mind..
things have changed..people have changed..I've changed..we all changed in the short 2 years time..

as much as you wanna keep things constant..the only constant in life is change..so we had to keep changing...keep telling ourselves all is well..as long as we keep going...

Well the thing about life is, it gets weird. People are always talking ya about truth. Everybody always knows what the truth is, like it was toilet paper or somethin', and they got a supply in the closet. But what you learn, as you get older, is there ain't no truth. All there is is bullshit, pardon my vulgarity here. Layers of it. One layer of bullshit on top of another. And what you do in life like when you get older is, you pick the layer of bullshit that you prefer and that's your bullshit, so to speak..

so I've chosen my layer of bullshit..and I'm gonna stick to it..and make it the truth everyone believes..

gonna get busy over the next few months..busy is good..shoots and school..lovely..

2009-09-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

zesty

Been thinking about doing postgrad after this year..a degree is simply not enough these days..so was telling a friend if i manage to get my second upper..i'll try to apply for one in UK..so that'll be my short term plan...

weather these days really horrible..it's either wet or warm and humid...so looking forward to cooling days..scouted University of Bristol..looks good..partly because it says the entry requirement is a minimum of second upper class honours..which is still achievable..first class is of course beyond reach..

i'm bored..it's time for something to refresh myself =)

Confession

2009-09-08T01:25:00.005+08:00

blogger has been giving me lots of problems..which explains the absence..

just gotten my results..not fantastic..but expected..at least the how much effort yields how much results theory works..so my First class is effectively gone unless miracle happens..can only aim for Second upper..hmmm..

gotten a new tripod..so will be looking to do more products macro and landscape..

a lot of things we put in effort..but that doesn't guarantee a result we'll be pleased with..like the food photography assignment i was hoping to land..even though i was rather pleased with the works i submit for selection..given the restriction i had..but it still didn't go my way..simply because i think they felt i'm not experience or qualified for it..fair enough..no hard feelings..but hard work don't give you success..so what matters is that we enjoy the process..
and this applies to many other areas in life..lesson is we should not always expect too much in return for our every effort..and take in the positives not just from results but also the process..

always felt i had this confession to make..i'm still thinking of her...

and i dun like to be made use off =(

2009-08-17T14:47:00.001+08:00

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gone

2009-07-28T22:01:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging much..blogger seems to be doing some upgrading works..i've been busy with wishes at make a wish...this week shld be better..currently shooting a similar event to last year's Disney event..dunno izzet me or them..the first time always go wrong..
Saw Kobe Bryant up close and personal..really friendly..not what i had expected..
slowly starting to set up my photography biz and works..a simple website created..details will be update soon..photoplay blog is on the way..
slowly slowly making my way into the scene..

holidays are hard to pass nowadays..especially when my creative juices runs out on me..

when someone tells you not wait..do you keep on waiting?
a matter of worth it or not..but how do you measure...
somethings we can live with..somethings we cannot..
where do you draw the line?

i nid more assignment..so broke..

Busy

2009-06-27T22:25:00.003+08:00

Having been updating much..been busy..went back for reservist..it was hell..but meeting up with old mates was well worth it..trying to win over an assignment on food photography..details to be sorted out..been doing up a new photoblog..details to be released asap..
Completed my first wish..an urgent wish with make a wish foundation..wish the wish family all the best..pray for hope..and hope good things will be delivered..
Give thanks that I'm able to be part of a do good organization..
Ashton is growing steadily..now he's about 5 kg already..a little chubby..but adorable nonetheless..gonna do up an album for him..so need to gather more photos =)
Camera (D80) is flying off again...it has traveled to more countries than me already =( need to get some cash in my pocket and go travel again..can't wait =)

Micheal Jackson's passed away..there are many negative reports about him but i believe with death..all else doesn't matter..we should remember his brilliance..his moonwalk..robot dance..popping and locking..his songs..by now his cd sales should be on fire..it's funny when one's not around anymore people then start to notice this person again..buying his songs..as a keep sake..or what?

-Don't wait till it's too late to tell someone you care that you love them-

2009-05-30T00:03:00.001+08:00

Time waits for no man..but for this moment..it's captured forever..and that's the beauty of Photography !

Ashton's 1st mth

2009-05-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

One month has passed..so quick..Ashton is one month young..haha..still not much change in terms of size..still sleep a lot..like me..haha...
Best time of one's life is when you're still a child..everyone showers you with love and care..though you may not remember much..but the love you will never forget..

So cheers to more happy days ahead for Ashton whose life journey just started..keeping things simple just like now..being happy and content..loved and loving...

-Happy 1st Month ! -

Disappointment

2009-05-27T22:33:00.003+08:00

Disappointment is aplenty in life..

Read something I'm not supposed to have read earlier on..Knowing oneself is not good and people telling you that you're not good enough is two different issue..
Knowing you're not good enough, there's room for you to improve..at your pace and on your own..Knowing that others feel you're not good makes things a tat tougher..because they'll already have a bad impression and as we not it's not easy to change one's perception..and as such..double the effort is needed..

A lot of time I question myself what am I gonna do for the rest of my life..and most of the time I've no freaking idea..when i picked up the camera, i thought I've gotten something in the bag..something that I'm good at..something that i can out do others..at least something that I enjoy doing..somewhere down the road when I started thinking maybe I can try and see if I can carve a career out of this hobby..and that's when things starts to become complicated..
When I'm shooting on my own..things is simpler..easier..I only answer to myself..I can take my time to improve my technique..But when you have people to answer to..people breathing down your neck..things certainly gets harder..
I've been getting critiques like suggestive critiques...for example if I do this and that it'll be better..and I appreciate such comments..and if I have a good reason for doing what I did..I'll rebuke..but today's comment was a flat lousy..and that's tough to take in..
And furthermore when it was supposed to be spoken behind your back..that just stinks..I rather is a direct comment so I can find out where has gone wrong..and so I kinda not know how to react..

One setback is not going to hinder me..but I just have to keep things back to simpler terms and not be overly concern about what other people says..good suggestive/constructive comments I'll take..others..you'll bound to hear..and I should try to take it easy..

Lesson learnt..Don't read messages that's not meant for you..haha..

I'll bounce back like I always do...

-Ignorance is a bliss-

Sick day...

2009-05-20T21:07:00.003+08:00

Sick..sianz..sux...
It always happens when i'm having exams..
late nights takes a toll on our body..
popped a couple of pills..feeling drowsy..tts y taking a break..
was toking abt how much stuff i've to chun out after my exams..abt 3 sets of photos..reservice..1 and 6 days...another 2 shoots in June..when can i go for my long deserved holiday??? hmmm...
When you're busy with stuff..your mind wanders less...an idle's mind is a devil's playground..stupid thoughts tends to be planted to your minds when your mind is idling..so to an extent it's good to be busy..

Just started using lightroom..feels good..and best of all..i can do batch adjustment under similar conditions..unlike the case in photoshop..further processing is still needed to be done on photoshop though..but still..i think i'll stick to lightroom for simple editing for the time being..it's time saving..and time is money...

prison break has come to an end for season 4..and it appears to be the last season..hmmm..been following the series for yrs now..kinda miss it..plus the ending is not the best..there's a debate about a possible season 5..but with the main character dead..i wonder how..but hopefully there will be a season 5 =)

saw a photography competition..but deadline is 2 days from now..real tight..had the photos but can't find help to get them ready as i have 2 papers for the next 2 days..arghhh...

going back to mug...two more days to go..hmmmm

-Certain things are not meant to be...and i knew it-

Regrets

2009-05-11T01:19:00.003+08:00

Regrets is also a form of beauty..because there's still something for us to feel regret about..

-Happiness can be so simple-

Sleeping beauty

2009-05-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

Good nights people..sleep tight..sweet dreams =)

Passed out

2009-05-08T16:38:00.002+08:00

Passed out..never knew wad this phrase means until today...
went out to buy envelops and mail some pics i've taken to the client..thought it'll be a snappy affair..so went out with my specs on instead of my contacts..at first everything looks overly focus until my eyes cannot take it..so i thought must be because i very long never wear specs out and under such a hot sun...but before i came to a conclusion..i was sitting by the road holding my head which is spinning by now..something was not right...not with my specs but with my head...so for the 5-10 min..i was sort of passed out..omg..
think it's because not enough quality sleep plus wrong human clock mechanism..and of cause the horrible weather..
back home now..still feeling light headed..hmmm
i hate exams..

2009-05-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

Finally..all my assignments have ended..no more shoots..can finally settle down to study for my exams which starts next week...Did a ROM shoot today..weather was bad..so means lots of editing to do..haha..blame weather..

Everything went smoothly i guess..not much hiccups..My friend is only 23..her husband is i think 24 or 25..hmmm..so young get married..takes a lot of planning and money...He seems like a reliable guy so i think my friend is in good hands...was taking a ride by her dad to chervons for the buffet dinner..then was talking about how we know each other..then the dad was like saying "你们以前是在一起的阿" but he was referring to use to study in the same school..and on came a moment of silence then laughter..then at the chalet also the same thing with the uncles..haha..omg..was quite awkward..for a moment..though many years have passed since we were together..feelings have passed too..but still somehow there's some awkwardness around..on my side at least..haha..saw her grandparents..still looking strong and healthy after 6 yrs..but think they forgot me already..after all they saw me back then for a while only..

But today's incident dawn on me as to whether i know my feelings? whether i know how to love someone..
i can still faintly remember when she left..i was feeling really upset and stuff..then here I'm shooting for her ROM..what was i thinking actually? hmmmm...if i had really such strong feelings back then..then why am i able to take things so easily now?
human emotions are something science can never predict..somehow I'm confused at times..what am i really feeling...if i really know my feelings i claim to have for..and more so when it's not reciprocate..

It's something i need to learn to understand..

-Do i love as i claim to be??-

Just My Luck

2009-05-02T22:40:00.004+08:00

was watching just my luck awhile ago..it's about the luckiest woman meeting the unluckiest guy...the moment they kiss..the luckiness(unluckiness) will be passed onto the other person..and it'll manifest within 10 seconds..so the plot is whether or not to love each other knowing one of them will always be super unlucky while the other can have all the luck in the world..
well of course they ended up together like every love story endings...

In love..it made us wanna sacrifice everything for the other party...giving up your luck..hitting a few walls in the process..and the only way to keep it going is when the love is reciprocate..because after that few walls..the next one just got higher and stronger..

How many walls are you willing to hit?

Another take away from the show is..that unlucky guy...after being unlucky for many many years survive by taking things easy and countering one problem at a time...remembering not to open an umbrella indoors..always bring a bag full of tools and kit to tide over anything that can happen..being prepared for the unknown...

We may hit obstacles..some more often..some less..if we keep harping over a problem..an issue..staying in that corner..we'll always be stuck there..cursing and swearing about your fate..
Instead..we should take things on a lighter side as much as possible..look at the problem for awhile..think of how to counter it..if really no way..then think of how to adapt to it..over time..obstacles will become lesser..problems smaller..and worries worry itself...best of all..you'll feel much better..

-Face your obstacles..it's the only way round-

Baby Ashton

2009-04-30T22:40:00.001+08:00

More of Ashton's pics..

2009-04-30T00:58:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday baby Ashton !!!!!
wooo..i'm officially uncle..haha...went down to the hospital just now...just came home..he's so small !!! too bad we cant stay for long..i can see my new model for my portraitures..hehe
Mom says he's a good life cow bcos he's born at night..night time cows are resting..lol hope he's as lucky as wad my mom says.. =)

weee...!

-A new beginning..a new hope..a new life-

2009-04-29T00:47:00.003+08:00

We should never say some things when we're in a state of instability..cos anything said will just be somethings tt's said in the heat of all the emotional unrest..which will cloud your judgement..well..having said that..i'll just haf to face the consequence of the outburst..
today is not a gd day...totally distracted..by wad i read..by my sis in law..she's in the hospital now..some complications occur..hmmm..

If everything goes well..i'll be an uncle tmr...i guess child birth..no matter wad era it is..will always be a dangerous process..even in this times where we assumed science is so advance..complications always occur..and u cant help but to feel helpless at times..
to quote from my bro..the baby poo in the womb..hmmmsth i've never heard of but potentially dangerous..which is y the doc is trying to get the baby out now even as i'm typing all this..

life is made up of additions...day by day everything adds up..wealth..age..problems..etc
but it is through substraction that we find peace and contentment..
we always look for more..not knowing that we already have wad we need in our hands..
there's nothing wrong going for greater things in life..but we should never forget wad we already have right in fromt of us..else we'll pay a great price for it when it's gone and away from us..

-sometimes all we have is hope-

100th post

2009-04-26T03:15:00.006+08:00

This is my 100th post !!!
after so long finally reached my 100th..haha..
just came home from a shoot..hanwei's sis's 21st
she was wasted and had to be carried onto the car..poor girl..dead drunk..i still don't understand what's so nice about drinking..hmmm and i probably never will understand..will be posting some pics later..got quite frustrated at the focusing..it's was really dark..and the auto focus had to hunt for quite a while to give me a focus point..hmpf..what's the use of a photographer in darkness???

seeing hanwei's family..envious..mine could never be like that...probably because the age gap is too great for mine..and we're not as affluent..kinda lost tonight..not too sure what to take..haha..place was cramped..lights dimmed..challenge..but do get some interesting pictures..hope can find the time to edit them soon..

a lot of people question why photographers charge so much when all they have to do is to stand in-front of you and say "ready..1..2..3.. smile !!! and press the shutter release button and you get a picture..well..that's because you people never get to see the work behind getting that picture and the cost not known to people who are not in this line..
Before a photographer started his career..he's probably gotta go for courses..buy the entry dslr and lenses..try out on his own..all this time not earning a penny other than the satisfaction from a good photo..when he decided to go pro...have to buy better dslrs..better lenses and equipment..marketing work..faster computers..hundred of hours shooting and thousands more behind the monitor screen doing up the final touches for that picture you see and decide whether if it's worth your money...what I've mentioned is just some of the things i know..of cos I'm not at the pro level yet..so some of the other hidden effort and cost I'm not sure off..but all these mentioned comes up to a great number...
so next time when you wanna engage a photographer..do not question why we charge this and that..question the quality level we're at..ask for our portfolio..then if it satisfy your needs then engage the photographer..there's one for every budget..

never really study today...slept late..woke up late..reach home late..late late late..LATE seems to always get to me..I'm constantly trying to shake it off but it always caught up to me...hmpf..so gotta burn the wee hours lamp oil after I'm finish with this..

texted her when i had time in between my shoot just now..i felt this complex feeling inside me..frustration..disappointment..sad..angry..dejected..helpless..used..happy..glad..drunked(my plain water became liquor..hanwei's aunt changed it and i thought it's lime juice)..very complex la..I'm surprise i can feel so many things at one go and not go crazy..i wish i had the courage to just tell her what i feel..patience i have..but it's no use..effort i put in..but it's not enough..care i gave..but it's too little..
i don't know what else to do already..nothing i did seems to work..and when you start to feel disappointed..it's just that much harder..knowing that what you're doing will eventually go down the drain..then why do so much? it takes 1/5 courage and 4/5 naiveness to hang on..when courage runs out...we start to look naive...

There's no such thing as a happy ending..not for everyone..to have one..one has to do so much good in his/her life..I've done too much bad..i won't have a happy ending..

Don't believe in karma...just do to the best of your
ability...and leave no regrets...if all else fails...look back...and smile because it happened

Short-sighted

2009-04-19T23:45:00.006+08:00

Susan Boyle

Guess by now most people have seen what Susan Boyle did on the show...
A few lessons learnt...

Don't judge a book by it's cover...always give it a chance to understand a person before you pass the judgement on someone..

If u believe in your dreams...go work hard for it...people might scorn at your looks blah blah..but if you have the substance...don't be afraid to go for what you believe in..

Sometimes when you feel that you know somebody...understand some people..don't be so sure...we're afterall unique individuals..each and everyone of our thoughts and actions are unique...some similarities may occur once in awhile..but don't judge..always give someone the chance that most people don't get...

Hanging out more often with a person may allow you to get to know them better...their likes and dislikes..habits..good and bad..and remember..it goes two ways..and when you starts to feel unappreciated in the process..things starts to change..most people wants to be appreciated..be it their time..their company..their efforts..so do show those you care your appreciation..

and when all that you're doing can't even compare to what a few texts from someone else..it's not nice..you might not have realise..but when you're smiling when you're looking at the text msg at times..the smile that's so warm..but it's not meant for you..Love is a complicated feeling full of emotions..frustrations..and naiveness..it clouds your judgements and makes you upset over the simpliest of things..even aloofness kills..when you say someone is doing that to you..are you doing it to other people...
You think that by staying around..being near..you'll be able to influence something..but one's mind is more complicated than what we think...Human's greatest flaw is the inability to see what we have in our hands...we always look elsewhere for better things and so we thought..and we think that what we have will always be there and therefore tends to neglect and not appreciate the reason for being there..it happens so damn often even at home...think

-Are you so short-sighted that you cannot see what's in front-

2009-04-17T01:38:00.001+08:00

翻开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落习惯被守候
寂寞才找我

我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在卑微的后头
等你等太久想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么

爱的痛了痛的哭了
哭的累了日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好像上瘾的毒药
它反覆骗着我

爱的痛了痛的哭了
哭的累了矛盾心里总是强求
劝自己要放手闭上眼让你走
烧掉日记重新来过

2009-04-03T21:54:00.001+08:00

~Rock Paper Scissors~

Which is worse?

2009-04-03T09:49:00.003+08:00

Which is worse...gastric pains or insomnia??
Answer: when they work hand in hand...
last night was the worse episode so far..stuck in bed..couldn't sleep..with slight discomfort..when i finally fall asleep..was woken up by the intensifying pain and eveytime i fall back to sleep..this whole cycle repeats...and this morning..wooo..never felt like this before..the pain becomes unified with the heartbeat..ahhh...

It's almost like a beast inside me devouring me from within..the beast within...ahhhh..think i'll be visiting the doc soon..tho i really don't like them..
but there's so much thing to be done..revision...collect equipment from sk...shoot on sunday...hmmm..

My name cards are in !!! haha..but the quality is not as good..probably should have changed the colour profile to adobe srgb...lesson learnt..that's one thing i have no idea at all..which is why i don't do prints..plus they are expensive..hmmm
now when people ask for my name card i can give..unlike before..haha..

-an idle's mind is a devil's playground-

2009-04-02T00:06:00.004+08:00

hmmmm...something seems wrong...can't word it..but something is really wrong/different...just feel it there...or not there...hmmmm...

..study study..

~你说你不管他了，但你满脑子都是他~

2009-03-31T23:09:00.005+08:00

-The vibrant before the storm-

keep getting stuck in work today..didn't do much at all..ahhhh..time is winding down on me...hmmm..tummy is constantly giving me problems.. =(
things are pretty calm now..but i've got a bad feeling..haha..like something's gonna happen..not that i know what's gonna happen..but rather a premonition..and sometimes they're really accurate..

If you know something is gonna happen..will you do anything to change it? because if you do..another change is triggered by your actions?because everything in this world is on a balance..and it'll always strive to restore that balance..so whatever you do or not do will trigger a reaction..like say you don't work hard when you're young..most probably when you're old..you'll suffer..so when you decided to do or not do something..think of the repercussion..

-the simplest answer is often right in front of you-

Food..food..food..

2009-03-29T23:15:00.003+08:00

Spent my evening in Kuishinbo..yeah..food..
My elmo was fully bloated =(
It's always like this..work out one day..next day eat eat eat..
no wonder my scale is increasing..
Found out that excel can do graphs..haha..noobie me...but yea..i learn fast..haha..

One important trait..positive trait in me is that i learn things fast..if i put my mind to it..someone who can do really well when i put my heart to something..something some people told me before..and i didn't think much about it..because i don't put my heart into much things..but when i do that, i normally do well.. =)
I'm not without confident..not overly confident also..
To me confidence comes from knowledge and practice..with knowledge, you'll know how to handle things and with practice, you make things to perfection..
so no one is without real confidence, they just need to increase their knowledge and practice more on the things that they need to do..

Found a perfect spot for the singapore pixel contest themed contrast..well not exactly found but chance upon a picture on flickr that look like the place i've been looking for!!! now the next step is to find that location..it's suppose to be some HDB that overlook chinatown and the financial district..perfect contrast of singapore's rich culture of tradition verse the modern financial district..
Deadline's 10th april, gosh..everything is coming at me so quickly..changes, deadlines...i really don't like this period of the year, ie march till june..cos it's always so hectic..

Been making a conscience effort to not use short-forms and type the proper words in this blog entry..realised if i keep using "u..abt..tat.." and things like these i'll not be able to use proper english when i'm at work in the future..so it's good to start practicing and hopefully things will become better =)

-one step at a time-

Football positions

2009-03-28T22:53:00.002+08:00

went for a football game today...feels so tired..haha..got some cuts here and there..but it was gd..
feels gd to play..with friends..weather was not forgiving..but got a little tanner..so not complaining..

Was thinking when i jus started playing..i noe nuts abt it..it was back in sec 1..we started wif those little plastic ball..it was a new environment for me..so playing football was the best way to blend in..was right footed..so began playing defence..as all beginners..i think..run alot along the flanks without the ball..chasing the ball most of the time..tt was also where i got my speed from..yes..from playing football..haha
mths..years..passed..switched over to the proper football..played in a more attacking role..and mostly because of my pace..but i've scored a couple of goals and my new position was rather cemented..and after awhile..u'll start to become lazy and u forget about defending..
Den recently as i aged..haha..started to move into a more central role..learning how to release the more runnnable players and control the whole midfield..creating goals rather than scoring them..enjoying this new role..and learning as each game passes..
Thats the thing about football..it's not jus abt a bunch of guys chasing after a ball..u learn wif each match..adapt to different situation and working hard for your teammates..of cos stamina and fitness plays an important role..

after game went over to holland v for dinner..NYDC again..lol..but this time round..it's nicer..haha..met cindy there too..but was too tired to talk at all..
talked abt things over dinner..kok brought up the topic of how close u're wif ur sibilings..guess he was thinking abt it cos he's the only child in the family..

i used to be quite close to my bro when i was young..as u grow older..the distance seems wider..not say distant..but jus not close..seldom tok oso since him moving out..

morning went sao mu..the day b4 slp only 2 hrs..so effectively i've only slept 4 hrs in 48 hrs..omg..aging damn quickly as i'm sleep deprived..knees burning up..but shld be ok tmr..there's this term call after wake syndrome..i came up wif it..meaning after a hard day of physical training..u go to slp..the next day u wake up..u'll feel the full effect of the aches and pain which u din feel immediately after ur training..the morning sunrise while i was at the cementry was amazing..pity i din bring my cam along..maybe find a day go take picture..
haha..tatboo..but my grandma will be there to look after me..made a few wishes today..hope she heard and maybe help help abit..

-to err is jus human-

2009-03-27T22:29:00.005+08:00

"we can never become who we are if we keep looking over our shoulders thinking what could have been?"
~Chloe, Smallville 8~

The stuff is ready..been doing it for quite a few nights already..really looking like panda now..
It's not something that worth a lot, but it's just made from my best wishes for now and ever...there seems to be some progress going on on their side..more so now after what she wrote on her blog..the guy more eager now..hmmmmmm..
help her wif a film research paper..hopefully it helps..

feeling...not so gd..tot i can get over it easily..since nth much developed..but but but..dunno..ask her out tmr but she's busy..hmmmm..wif sch work and stuff..

shld i actually be doing all these..i've asked myself..shld i be doing wad i'm doing?? am i lingering around hoping she'll be mine one day?or am i really jus doing this bcos i'm a friend?is there something that i shld do and something that i shldn't do now?
they say when it rains it usually pours..and it happens pretty often to me...so shld i be taking reference from the past , meaning things will never go my way, or shld i look forward and jus keep on moving..let there rain and jus deal with things as they come? But then again..一朝被蛇咬，十年怕井绳...

I'm not doing things for her..be nice and stuff cos i'm hoping for something..at least not entirely..i'm lidat..maybe the feelings make it more than willing..but inside me..i'm jus lidat.. i'm quite sure she's keeping a distance and i dun blame her..i respect that decision..cos in a way it's helping me..a weird way..and i dun complain..of cos it stings..but i'm not complaining..as much as i wan this so call friendship to work..it takes two hands to clap..so sometimes it really stings..

I'm not an expressive person..but matters of the heart really made me wanna say alot of things..but somethings can/should never be said now..no matter wad i do or not do..he's always 1 up..it's a fact that i'll haf to deal wif..

exams coming and it really sucks..and concentrating is so hard..really wanna do well..not jus say say..hmmm..

..nice guys end last..but last guys are not nice..

2009-03-26T21:19:00.002+08:00

A friend of ten years...told her to let me take a proper shot..but this was all i could get..prefered it all natural though..haha

10 years..can u imagine?? how many 10 years one has in a lifetime? i've taken 2 already..and sad to say..i'm not too proud abt wad i've done with them..and it's already 3 yrs into my 3rd..wad more have i done with it?
gotta buck up already yo..

Talked abt things..everything seems like just yesterday..futures..plans..and nydc is not tt nice..lol..maybe it's jus me..she wasn't complaining tho..asked me when i've learnt to take thigs so easily as i'll be doing a wedding shoot for my ex..my ans: i've grown up and the feelings have passed..
come to think of it..realised i'm the one updating rather than updating each other..lol..was telling her we gotta meet up more often..dun wanna wait some 10 yrs b4 another meet up arise..dunno how many 10 yrs we've got..lol

Met cindy last night abt the japan trip..still pondering..cos the fares over in japan is rather pricey..tho the air ticket is cheap..but over there..hmmm..but really feel like going..even tho japan was nv in mind when i've decided to travel..lol gotta make a decision fast..eeee...if only i'm a rich kid..then i wont haf to blink an eye b4 saying yes..hmmmm..

gotta go mug liaoz..hafnt been studying diz days..die die..

Unhappy

2009-03-23T20:01:00.003+08:00

Not happy..not at all..
y do humans feel more for unhappy stuff rather than happy things...and that we remember the unhappy things more and that happy stuff are easily forgotten..
and when it rains it pours...wanting so much to leave..

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standin here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin
It's early morn
The taxis' waitin
He's blowin his horn
Already I'm so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leavin on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leavin on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leavin on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, I'm leavin on a jet plane
Dont know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Recognised

2009-03-23T13:56:00.009+08:00

Singapore Weekly Photographer

Singapore Photographer Facebook Group

Entangled

Too bad i wasn't able to be present for the 1st anniversary held at the supperclub..exams and stuff..this is my first award..haha..so to speak..no prize but still happy..somemore i'm the last person..week 52nd..haha..damn heng..
So now it gives me tt little bit more to up my level some more..for more awards in future..it's gd to be recognised for wad u're doing..photography is my 2nd serious hobby after running..and i intend to do it well..even if not going to go into commercial or wad..at least the standard have to be there..and i oso hope one day i'll be able to have my own exhibition =)

Shapes

2009-03-18T18:53:00.004+08:00

Apart

Heart

Entangled

Shapes of everyday things...hearts..lines..curves..
Little little things you and i missed in our hectic lives..simple things created by light and shadows...
Have you ever wonder how much u've missed?

2009-03-17T16:01:00.003+08:00

差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

遇上了错的人
渐渐的吻在她无心的嘴唇
感觉像一个旅程走完了就分
错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
爱情的岔口
你是我等不到的路人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

错过了对的人
决定就只在那一秒那一分
如果没缘分
我也会固执的为你一人
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分　

Blissful Journey

2009-03-16T22:24:00.005+08:00

Wedding of Adrain and Pauline..
was introduce to them by a fren..this is the 3rd diz yr..looking at the blissfulness of these lovely couples...it does rub off to me a bit..
A marriage, the union of a couple..it is possible only through love..and lots of courage and understanding....
From dating to marriage..some may take a while..others take a long while..but it's all hardwork..and only those in the picture will noe if it's worth it..

2009-03-14T01:37:00.002+08:00

Another day of shoot..
Talked abt things...
Hope things goes well for her =)
Enjoy your Saturday =)

The remedy

2009-03-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

I saw fireworks from the freeway
And behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
'Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
Now something on the surface it stings
I said something on the surface
Well it kind of makes me nervous
Who says that you deserve this
And what kind of god would serve this?
We will cure this dirty old disease
If you've got the poison I've got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

I heard two men talking on the radio
In a cross fire kind of reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
They were counting down the ways to stab
The brother in the be right back after this
The unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh
Death breath is sure to outlast this catastrophy
Dance with me, because if you've got the poison,
I've got the remedy

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why

Because

The remedy is the experience.
This is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that it's serious.
This is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend
The rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends
When it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't worry my life away.

I won't and I won't and I won't

Trapped

2009-03-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

Feeling trapped..
In between the light and shadows lies a cage..
A cage that keeps me apart..
Binds me to the same spot..
With the key thrown away..
will i ever be free one day?

2009-02-18T22:37:00.001+08:00

HOPE

New Year

2009-01-01T16:24:00.001+08:00

New year again...
time flies...

A busy Christmas

2008-12-27T02:03:00.004+08:00

Disney event over at Changi International Airport Terminal 3 Transit Mall

Busy busy pon pon...

2008-12-16T08:17:00.002+08:00

Been busy...too busy..

shooting an event over at Changi airport which last until end December..so my dec is practically burnt...was intending to go for a short trip but guess it has to be shelved..
due to the shoot and my laziness..more of my laziness..i've pon 2 lectures already..omg...gotta force myself to attend them next week...lots of catch up to do..
this event is abt disney characters..i think they come from disney world HK..and it really doesn't me to error..cos it's a shoot and print thingy...queue very long..very rush...so it doesn't really allow me to practice my photography..but i've learnt to work more effeciently...
haf a couple of other shoots..wif zemotion...frenz..everyday shoot shoot shoot...
completed my first standard chartered marathon!!! was a gd experience..think will join again next yr...drove for my first time since getting my license..rough ride..hope i din scare kok and esmond..lol
met up wif frenz for kuishinbo @ JP for lunch...wasn't as gd as Suntec's..and there wasn't my favourite crab for the lunch period!!!!
Christmas round the corner and the postcards i've ordered is yet to be delievered...think DHL already..
received an email from Red Cross Society Singapore for a shoot..but too bad i'm occupied and cant make it..few so ahhh...should nv haf accepted the Changi shoot..taking up too much and returning too little...
benn pastering yanie to org some class gathering..haha..heard from ms wun that this is her last yr in JJC..so really hope can haf a class gathering b4 everyone disappeared...and it happen all too often..even though singapore is so small..
been blogging for abt a yr already...how time flew diz yr of 2008...initially create this space to dump my feelings over the past relationship...din really work out..
not sure how she's now..heard she's doing well..at least she's doing well..and tts all tt matters..realise something..that although fellings haf passed...all too quickly..she has leave a heavy footprint inside me that can nv be erased..just hope i can hear from her soon...as a long lost fren...back to simpler terms..

Life is too short...too sudden

2008-11-27T20:46:00.002+08:00

Just gotten the news of my uncle's death...
And the funeral and cremation was promptly dealt with...
I din really noe him well cos i've like nv really seen him before all these years..
this was only the third funeral i've attended of my relatives...

seeing my dad crying for the first time...my heart melted...tears followed...even the dog's howling seems so tearful...although i dun noe him personally..but when it all comes down to the final moment of life in flesh and blood...nothing else really matters anymore...materials..money..cards..etc...he just laid there...motionless..

the only thing tat matters is wad u leave behind...whether if it resentment..a legacy..love ones..enemies..memories...those things intangible...things you cannot touch but you can feel...

dun wait till the last moment of someone you love to show them tat love..those feelings so precious..dun just keep it in your heart...show it in your everyday life...

life is too short..so short..you wont know wad will happen tmr..

"For yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day! "

2008-11-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

LaSalle College of the Arts

Something Soft

2008-11-09T00:21:00.002+08:00

Something Soft...

Speak up...trying

2008-11-05T20:59:00.004+08:00

Speak up...trying, originally uploaded by pinkass.

It's November already...
How time flies...day after day..month after month...year on year...
It'll wait for no one...How have you live your days, months and year???

Met up wif old frens..been awhile...enjoyed it....school's getting alot tougher..marathon getting nearer...
Met Lirong on the train one morning...really really out of the blue...we had hi and byes and how are you only...really awkward...hafnt seen her like 4 years already...God bless =)
But this sets me thinking..one day if i were to meet Her...similar scenario...izzet gonna be hi byes??or will there be plenty to talk abt???will i haf to wait for 4 years too..when i least expect it???
Just hope to see her..know how she's doing...tts all.....period

smoking

2008-11-01T22:46:00.003+08:00

Canon Photomarathon 08

2008-10-19T22:12:00.004+08:00

Theme 1 : Change

Theme 2 : Dreams

Theme 3 : Freedom

When for Canon Photomarathon 2008 over the weekend...
This year's theme were change ; dreams ; freedom

Seems to me this year's theme are easier than last yr's...i've got more ideas..which is a gd sign..though not winning ideas..but many matches the shortlisted ones..

the only prob is execution.

Managed to engage strangers to pose was a big improvement..special thanks to the man for theme dreams..really easy going person..thanks again!

Now will have to work hard for the competitions to come..

Thinking back to last yr's competition, She was there at national library doing her projects. got to see her early in the morning..i was at the bus stop..she was one street away..
This yr...i was at the bus stop...but she was not there anymore...

Still..i hope she can see my improvements...
It's been so so long..

Missing you so...

Hidden agenda

2008-10-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

2008-09-26T14:23:00.002+08:00

Some photos from SIM Handball challenge 08

arrRH

2008-09-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

arrrRHHHh.......
grrrRHHHH.....

03s3

2008-09-07T21:40:00.003+08:00

A night out with jc classmates left me with fond memories and a whole lot of rash..haha.. been so long...too long...

a pity not everyone can make it..
i really cant drink..dunno if it's a blessing or curse..haha..that was wad xp asked me..a little bit of both...now that i think again..well..i'm sure i can find a perfect solution..
lets hope for more chances to meet up guys..=)
going back to sch soon..in a week's time..changed to full time..so everything is a new to me..new beginning...lets hope things turns out well...make things rite diz time round...haf yet to inform zemotion abt my schedule so we can work out the internship possibility..hafnt make payment for my comming new term...hafnt sign up for canon photomarathon...so many things hafnt do...it's the lazy me again....lol

想太多

2008-09-04T02:04:00.005+08:00

你笑着说他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说都是错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

Nike Human Race 10k Singapore

2008-09-03T00:38:00.004+08:00

The Human Race 10k
A sea of Reds
Leading the pack
stepssssssssss
v
ipod girl
guess nothing escapes the ERP

Was down at the Nike Human Race 10k Singapore.
Was surprise to see the huge turn out.
Mostly were there to have a fun race rather than competing..so it was all fun and joy..the spirit was high...everyone was having lots of fun...
Initially wanted to join the race..but din do it in the end..dunno y..haha..
saw some familar faces in the sea of reds...hope they do well for the race...
enjoy the pics.........

Results are out for the UOL examinations..
din do too well...
But guess i deserve wad i got...一份耕耘，一份收获...in other words...you reap what you sow...

Intro to Econs ----72
Mathematics 1 ----92
Mathematics 2 ----54
Stats 1 ----64
Stats 2 ----34
POA ----36

Well...though i've managed to scrape through...i've to work much harder from now on...now deciding wad module to tae for the next sem..have to pick the rite ones to score...else gone case..
My right eye has been twitching none stop for the past couple of days...hope it doesn't spell trouble...hope everything will be ok...hope she'll be ok...

Opportunity

2008-08-25T01:45:00.006+08:00

It's Zemotion.....omg....i'm an opportunist...hope it is 'the' opportunity to kick start my career....

The olympics have ended...in a high note too..well done Beijing...
well done China...

Seeing these world class races..sets my heart thinking...wad if i had choosen the same path so many did...not world class..but i'll be happier..running's my life..it was..it is..it will be....Doing my first 42.195 km this coming Dec...feels like a long awaited race for me..should haf done it a couple of yrs back..injuries have kept me at bay...so diz yr will be the yr...finally..have always wanted to run a marathon and see how far i can go..aiming for 4hrs 30 min..may not be fast..but it's my first time afterall...so dun wanna set the mark too high..

Will be doing lots of interval training..yes i noe..it's the wrong type of training for marathon..but i nid to condition myself first..time is short..haf to find the fastest way..knees been feeling way better as it was a yr back...everything shld go smoothly...

So tts wad i've been doing lately..and work of cos...and a little surprise just pop up over last week..yes it's Zemotion!!!...have been following her works for quite sometime..saw her webby looking for intern..applied for it..and got called up..wooo...went for one of her shoots...very experience given her age..or shld i saw..i'm so noob given my age..well..we all gotta start somewhere rite...lets hope this is my first step....really big step...now just gotta work put my schedules..

results for my exams will be out sooon....not looking forward to it..cos i noe i din do well..just hope it's not too overly horrible....

Just a side note to those who wanna leave something over at the tagbox :
"come on..get a life !!!"
You dunno me so dun judge...
Your efforts to get me down is not working..so get lost...and get a life...really..it's for your own good..thanks..

My first...

2008-08-14T01:20:00.022+08:00

Life's many "first" happends in some way you never plan for it...
well in my case..my first event coverage...haha...Introducing Fairfield's Founders' Day Dinner...
"A World has open for us"

It was an okay event..nothing very special other than old frenz gathering..seeing teachers..and principals...lol...
But it was a gd experience for me...pictures not fantastic..but i'm learning...

Derrick Chew is the org for diz event..haha..hafnt heard from him for a long time..lol...

Many pple haf aged over the yrs..very apparent under the harsh lighting...was hoping to meet up with old frenz at the dinner...but only manage to catch a few...kinda wasted...everyone is so busy diz days..the old u get..the busier you get..sux...hope to meet them soon...haha

Thx blue for ur encouragement..haha..ur singlet is still wif me...when u wanna collect it??haha...the Bangkok smell no more liaoz..haha..

been really tired lately..specially the eyes..my job is not so gd after all..lol....playing game can be tiring...lol...

Been thinking of her very often lately..dunno y...somehow just tot of her..time really flies..so long never heard anything from her already...dunno if she alrite..hope everything is fine...

我来到　你的城市

走过你来时的路

想像着　没我的日子

你是怎样的孤独

拿着你　给的照片

熟悉的那一条街

只是没了你的画面

我们回不到那天

你会不会忽然的出现

在街角的咖啡店

我会带着笑脸　挥手寒喧

和你坐着聊聊天

我多么想和你见一面

看看你最近改变

不再去说从前　只是寒喧

对你说一句　只是说一句

好久不见

拿着你　给的照片

熟悉的那一条街

只是没了你的画面

我们回不到那天

你会不会忽然的出现

在街角的咖啡店

我会带着笑脸　挥手寒喧

和你坐着聊聊天

我多么想和你见一面

看看你最近改变

不再去说从前　只是寒喧

对你说一句　只是说一句

好久不见

2008-07-27T01:03:00.003+08:00

Broken glass abstract
leading lines....
Net
Reflections....
Focus...

1 6 9 10 5 4
getting ready...
blocks
attention is all on lane 4
Some shots from the National Inter-Schools Track & Field Championship and NDP rehearsal...

It's been a while since i've updated...Now working for EA SIC as a game tester...hahaha...how cool is that...getting paid to play games...hahaha...but it's not as gd as it sounds...really tiring on the eyes...but still..pay is gd..so cant complain too much..haha..

Watched The Dark Knight last week end Gd show..everyone shld watch..it's the best of the Batman series......went to Ming Song's studio opening after that...congrats to him..his place is nice..but studio a little small..but location is gd..so i guess it's give and take..

Was at the Track & Field competition...times pass really quickly...come to think it was around 5 yrs already..haha..ooold liaoz....

seeing my coach..Mr Ang...and the rest of the PE department...feels gd to see them again..and the best is they still remember my team of year 2004...getting the bronze medal in the 4x100 metres relay...Thinking back...my life has changed so so much...lol...fat oso..haha...now the belly is like nv ending growth...lol..have to do something abt it...
Back at work..this team whereby i was working with have a daily sharing session..anything and everything...i feel it's a gd way of building a gd rapport with one another...something i've learn and hopefully can make use of it somehow in the future...

Been enrolled into the exco member of my sch's photography club...dun really noe wad to do..it's been awhile since i've been into some planning grp..have been following instructions for the past yr...pple say wad i do wad..and it makes the brain really retard now..went for the exco meeting and i was like having no suggestion and ideas to give..feel really bad..gotta use my brain more often then...haiz..

And i just got a message from an old fren...asking me to cover Fairfield's Founders' day dinner...details still being discussed..but i've nv did something of such scale..so dunno if i shld take the deal..haha..haiz..all i need is some confidence and people skills..hmmm..every opportunity is golden...so i shldn't give it up rite??haha...how how how??haiz...

let's hope everything will be fine..haha..just came back from a soccer game at fico..shag..really out of shape..sianz...gotta go slp..signing off now..nitez..

Back from trip...planning for more...

2008-07-15T22:03:00.004+08:00

Night life Bangkok..
Oops.....
Penalty!!!!!
Interesting views.....
Peaceful Protest.....

Saying Hi !!
Long lost friend....
OMG....
My own brand....
Really peaceful protest....

Back from the land of ladyboys and tiger-show...wonder why is it call "tiger-show"...lol..

Everything was good other than the horrible air...
We've one man down on our way back..lol..

Having been to the city voted world best...it has open the thirst for me to travel the world....
Gotta find some income though...got a job as a game tester...how cool is that...get paid to play games..omg..once i've the capital...gotta go into investing...kick start my career...

Met up with angela..a very long nv see fren..haha..fellow trackee...talk and talk..so much things in the past that i thought i had already forgotten...din realise i was such a devil in my younger days...leaving for Shanghai soon...wish her all the best...
But seeing frenz travelling all round the world makes me really envious of them...
Money money money..it's so good to have it all...but it's the root to all evil...even Venerable Shi Ming Yi..head of Ren Ci hospital was charged with forgery, conspiracy and misuse of funds...we dunno if he's guilty..but why must such things happen???he's a monk...四大皆空。。。yet cannot resist the temptation...den wad abt normal beings like us...
How contradicting life can be...we've create a system to bound ourselves into...money money..paper only..but it is something...we want many...such a system will never be broken..we're so used to it..everything has a price...everyone has a price...just that we may not be able to see it....
I wanna use photography as a platform for people to realise the harshness of this world...to see what the system we've created has caused problems to many unfortunate souls in the world...i'm not there yet..but i'm working on it...but i have this belief..one day...i can....
So keep a look out for my works...

Tomorrow is national inter-schools track and field finals....it's been 3 yrs...i won a medal 3 yrs ago...can never forget...all the hard work...trainings till late evenings...beads if sweat rolling down the forehead...smell bods...all in the past...passing the baton to SK...shouting cheering the last burst....we got caught up at the very last stride..but we got 3rd...i'm contented...the adrenaline...the anxiety...still can feel it everytime i think back....and tts something no one can take away from you..memories....be it bad or good..they stay with you forever...

you can do many things to forget someone or something...but you'll be surprise that one day..just one day...the very memory u're trying to erase will come back at you...and that is my worth..
Been looking forward to everyday more often...future is not something we can forcast...thus nth is impossible....we just haf to try....

One year

2008-07-02T14:03:00.005+08:00

Been a while since i last saw a rainbow...much less rainbow tots...
My heaven's above...

It's been a year...020707....

Alot have changed...my hair's alot shorter diz days...my pictures have improved...my frenz have increased..got my climbing license..now can go climbing unlimited!!! many many positives...thankful for all that...
Hope she's doing well...loss all forms of contact already..so hope...

Feelings gone...memories down...time is cruel...
Still missing...still hurting...dunno when it'll all come to an end...

Will be travelling to bangkok on friday...so frenz..if u guys need anything..give me a ring...t-shirts...singlets...anything but ladyboys... =)
cant wait to go..haha...
And anyone who needs a photographer for events..weddings...do give me an email...jasp_chia@hotmail.com...for my portfolio..look under flickr in the links below...thx thx!!!

AN interesting Saturday

2008-06-15T01:13:00.003+08:00

A lazy Saturday night with Ben & Jerry's Ice cream..NOt a good news for my growing belly..

Sat...a day where people are suppose to relax and have fun after a week of hard work...but in fast pace singapore..time is really ticking real fast..it's gd to have time to event sit down and relax..much less have fun...

So when i had the luxury of the sat afternoon all to myself...it's was kinda sweet and weird...was suppose to get some blood and gore makeup sets for the coming theme shoot...but instead got some artificial food colouring and flour to make the effect...this market of party and special makeup is really limited in singapore..

Then was suppose to attend the comms parade with sk..but couldn't make it in the end...so there i was in Orchard Rd having the time in the world to do wadeva i want...went to Borders..got myself a book title "Undercover economist" and i spent my lazy afternoon reading with a nice cup of ice mocha...awww....relaxing...

Simple pleasures of life...simple yet nice...

Went home for dinner...but Mom was never happy after Bro's marriage...she felt she's lost a son...after raising him up..she feels tt he simply left her behind...he's always been the one she cared abt most..her center of everything she build on...so when another woman enter..she's threatened and she felt lost...yeah yeah..i noe abt how she feels..but there's nth i can do abt it...it's sth she must learn to let go...

A tub of ben and jerrys sums up this lazy saturday...sunday has come..a new week awaits.

Bro's wedding

2008-06-10T01:30:00.004+08:00

Time flies..really...it's was last yr when my bro announced his wedding plans which took place last sat...
Wedding is between 2 person..2 families...and many many pairs of eyes and mouths..if anyone thinks that marriage is between the couple..then you're so wrong...so it's really tough on all parties involved...
My bro has been busy day in and out..mom's been preparing all the necessary stuff...renovation of their new home..i've a part to play..so so many things to take care of...
But come the actual day..you'll feel everything was worth it...we are a simple family..thus the wedding was rather simple..nth fanciful other than realising my brother CAN dance...lol...
I just hope everything will go smoothly for the newly weds and most importantly..between my da-sao and my mom...hope this is the new beginning..the beginning of a wonderful life ahead...hope to see my little nephew sooon..haha..so i can take many many pics!!
And for mom...hope she can take things easy and realised that she had not lost a son but haf a new daughter instead...

Bro, Wish u a happily ever after!!!

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Just for updates..i'm now an official full time student..not a full time part time student..haha..lets cheer for new beginnings and happenings...cheer that everything is bright and promising...=)

Endless love

2008-05-28T00:40:00.002+08:00

Ballet company...

Ballerina Sunset

Closing up for the ballet shoot

My nonchalant look...

My smile...

Busy busy busy...lots and lots of pictures to edit...owe ivan's kiaros" BBQ pics...owe dao sao their wedding pics...ballet shoot...preparing for bangkok trip in july..saving up for canada trip next yr...and a possible cambodia trip in dec...looking for job again...so many things to do...but i like...haha...

over...

2008-05-17T02:26:00.003+08:00

exams are over..yes over as in badly done...hmmm...
this is the first time i've done so badly...i mean i'm not super smart...but i've nv leave an exam hall hoping for a pass..
bad bad bad...really bad..read through the uni's regulation..i've only got 3 more chances to retake those i've failed or done badly...so guess i've to really mug my life out to make amendments for being lazy..
this time round...really gotta get serious already...for once i've lost interest in everything..then become restless...then lazy...and it becomes a habit...
My primary school teacher once said..never form a bad habit..because when u remove the 'H' u've got 'abit'...when u remove 'A'..u still have that 'bit'...even when u remove 'B'...u still have 'it'....so nv develop a bad habit...now that i've fallen into the trap...it'll take alot to kick the habit..so friends and family..when u see me lazing around...please kick my butt...and make me work...!!
i've to fight it...this time i'll....

yuppie...aka see ghost

benson...

kenneth...

lennard...

went to meet up with my fellow guardsmen...haha...miss them lots..the times we had back in army..the stupid things we did....the shit we went through together...and somehow...when we get together...all the funny words just keeps coming out..it's good to see everyone doing fine...as much as the the army system still nids to get sort out...the brotherhood formed will last a long long time...and thats the only positive outcome of NS i feel..

Happy Birthday

2008-05-08T21:19:00.004+08:00

If I'm colour blind

Relaxed...

Hot !!!

It's d-day..in every sense of it...

Exams started...feels ok the paper..but still..not really confident abt it cos i dunno wad i dunno...tmr is stats...one in the morning..and after lunch..sianz..and i'm no where near finishing my revision...gotta burn the midnight oil already..
meeting a seller for my long awailted SB-800...finally can do indoor shoots!!!

Her birthday today...8th May...it's been a year...so so fast..time really flies...everything is still so vivid in my mind...but i've learn to put them aside...missing is hard...but time will heal all things...and we'll come out stronger each time...
Wonder how she's celebrating this year...think she'll be really happy!
Just wanna wish her Happy birthday...hope my blessing and wishes for her will come true...

Thinking of setting up a blog dedicated to the scenes of singapore..young and old..new and rustic...everything about singapore..after 22 years..i now then starting to realise that it's really a great place to be in..after hearing experiences of people who had live in many parts of the world..but i've no idea how to go about setting this up..if anyone has any idea..do let me know..=)

Rock climbing....

2008-05-06T16:04:00.005+08:00

French kid trying out rock climbing...he's easily distracted...

Our instructor for the climb workshop @ climb adventure

Cindy posing for a shot..haha

On board the DHL balloon at 150 feet

A busy sunset..

Had a fun weekend...went for a ride on the DHL balloon...the scene was really nice...but the ride last just a little over 10 minutes..so it's kinda short..the wind above is really strong..and the whole "cage" was shaking badly..but it was refreshing..never thought a local like me would go try it out..haha..try it b4 it's gone...
And oso the climb workshop over at climb adventure at clementi...was accompanying Cindy...and i thought it'll be a breeze..but i was wrong..haha..soon my arms was shaking badly...totally out of shape..but really enjoy the sport..conquering heights...but needed more training in order to get more fun out of it the next time...definitly gonna try the more climbing after exams..and the level 1 course and after that i'll be able to climb anywhere!!!haha..cool...
really wanna get back to my more adventurous life in the past..life is too short to waste it on boring stuff...check out skydive in thailand..will be making a trip there at the end of the yr..finally !!!
a possible vietnam trip in oct...
soooo looking forward to everything...gotta save up now...

but now...it's back to mugging for exams...left 2 more days..omg...hopefully all goes well...

8th May

2008-05-03T01:45:00.003+08:00

Retouching the first beautiful sunset with an old age feel

My Sunset fantasy

HDR Sunset @ keppel marina

After staring too long at books, past exams papers

Exams exams exams!!!!
Been preparing for exams...it's gonna be tough..but i'll just try my best...taking things easy...but not lightly...it'll commence on 8th May...a date that keep popping out of nowhere..that keep buggin me...izzet a sign that something's gonna hpn??
hmmmm....
it's a special date...not just becos it's the start of my exams...but rather...it's her birthday...it's been a yr...time really flies...if everything went smoothly..we would have been friends for a yr now...but we went from strangers to friends to lovers to friends to strangers again...a "completed" cycle...got so much thing to say to her...but will never get the chance to...got her a birthday gift...but thinking of whether to gif it to her...not that it meant anything anymore..just a wish for her...
i may not have been updating..but i feel much better now...still misses her..but moving on already..always on the lookout for opportunity to meet pple...to learn new craft and to further my interest in photography...i dunno how she's now...but i guess no news is the best news sometimes...means she's getting on well...happy...blissful...and that's wonderful for her...thank god for that...
hope it'll be a peaceful May...hope she graduates with great results this semester...hope she finds a good job...live a good life...
Been thinking on making a backpacking trip...think this coming holiday might just be it...really wanna go out and haf fun...experience life on backpack...taking pictures...relaxing...making new friends...really hope all will fall nicely into place soon...

Beauty awaits...

2008-04-19T04:15:00.001+08:00

Just outside my windows...=), originally uploaded by pinkass.

Looking at such a beautiful scene...let us just take a step back from the negative news on Tibet...Olympics...terrorism...crimes...povety...rising oil prices and commodities..Wall Street...

Take a step back...to look at the beauty of things around you..beside you..or just outside your windows..
Take a step back...and realise we are not that poor actually...and not all problems are impossible to solve...
Take a step back...and feel the warmth of sunsets...and feel the greatness of life...we're not that lonely...

Give thanks to all these beauties...and reflect on how much we actually have around us...take a step back and you'll get back so much more than the step you took....

Leap of Faith

2008-04-02T22:48:00.005+08:00

Taking the step...the 1st step...the 1st step in many months...

Just when life seems bad without her...it's been getting quieter...
Just when i wanna forget...more seems to come back...

Everything that i do..everywhere that i go..i think of you...
But everything i do..i do it alone...and everywhere i went..you weren't there anymore...

Meeting new friends...making new acquaintances...
Nothing means more than seeing you once more...

Life has derail a little bit...but soon it'll go back on track...
When the road ahead seems impossible to cross...hope is just round the corner...
We just have to keep walking and hope...hope all things..give all things..pray all things...
Not for miracles...not for impossibilities...
But for reachable...for possible... for the future...

THANK YOU!!!

2008-04-01T00:06:00.004+08:00

Open Your Heart 2008 finalist

This is a copy of the pic that was in the open your heart competition..in case anyone nv see it before...

Wanna say a big thank you to all you who supported me =) !!!
Especially Cindy and Kok who came down to show support..haha..love ya lots...
Though i din win..but it was even better to know that i've great frenz who supports wad i do!!!
I think in that sense...i've won more than anything else...

The 3K went to Sk..who introduce me to the competition..look for his pics on flickr..search under the name sprintist86!!! great pics..great talent..

Next up is Singapore young photographer award(SYPA) ..haha...deadline's drawing close..and i'm no way near submiting any pics yet..hmmm..really busy these days with exams coming in may..

Open Your Heart!!!

2008-03-30T00:17:00.004+08:00

Hey pple..rmb the pic you help voted in the HIV awareness photography competition??
IT'S BEEN SHORTISTED AS 1 OF THE 20 FINALIST!!!!
And now i need your help again....simply visit the Open your Heart tentage outside orchard cinelesiure anytime until 2pm on 30th March Sunday!!! and sms vote for my pic!!!
Simply type : 16 [space] (Your Name) [space] (NRIC)
And send it to 82569446 and you're done!!
Voters stand to win some prizes too!!!

It's ok if you dun vote but do go down to the place whereby u get to see pics telling you more abt AIDS and discrimination and stuff like that..and bascially tells you more abt the suitation here in Singapore...It's for a good cause..you can even learn about how to become a volunteer there..just approach the friendly stuff for any queries!!!
I noe it's a little late now..12:24 am as it is now..but i pray somehow you guys will read this and go down to take a look...there're some really good photos there..support the action and not just me!!!

i'll be there tomorrow too..hope to see some familar faces!!!

hackers???

2008-03-25T01:36:00.003+08:00

Hmmmm...something's wrong with my hotmail..arhhhhhzz....
Damn sianz...Dunno if it's kana hacked or something wrong with the system...
My mails and folders are all gone...!
at the moment...still dunno the effect/consequences yet...lets just hope nth ugly will hpn..
exams coming...and i'm not studying hard enough...hmmm..need help!!!
finding it so hard to focus lately..cant afford to fail..to expensive to fail..haha...just have to work harder each day...

Paying respect

2008-03-23T09:34:00.007+08:00

Just went to pay my respect to my grandparents...It's been awhile since my whole family went out together...everyone is busy with the daily chores..only i...am so free to think so much....to much time on my hands...wasted...
Been having a bad flu...sianz...
Was back in sch for revision last week..dunno where it's heading..still pretty much hafnt started any revision yet..but i'm getting there...=)

Found a nice book recently..titled : How to stop worrying and start living...
Realised that worrying and me is quite related actually...
"The worried person must lose himself in action, lest he wither in despair. "
So true are those words...i was too free..and my mind was too idling..which caused me to start thinking abt anything and everything...and eventually resulted in her leaving...The thing abt the book is that all that is taught is bascially very simple..in fact..most of the stuff we already know..but doing it is not so simple...sometimes the simplest of things seems so complicated...

A quote from professor William James, " acceptance of what has happened is the first step in overcoming the consequences of any misfortune. "
It may seem so easy...but coming to terms with wad had happened is nv simple..but if i wanna move on..it's something i'll have to start doing...and soon...lest i wither in despair...

" For yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day! "

-Kalidasa-

Markers of life..paint my life with rainbows!!!

A lost vision...

Shiya's wedding...

我还能做什么

2008-03-19T01:39:00.004+08:00

你终于说出口
其实你早就已经不爱我
为什么要低著头
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我
可是这不是玩笑
是要逃避你离开我的理由

我还能做什么你已经不爱我
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
我还要做什么你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看著我
一心想离开我

我终于也说出口
其实很爱你但从没认真说过
或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由

我还能做什么你已经不爱我
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
我还要做什么你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看著我

没什么需要被原谅
我笑得有些牵强
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
oh 不想看你那么累
多希望再给我机会
颤抖著我的手
握住的只是风

还能做什么你已经不爱我
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
我还要做什么你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看著我
一心想离开我

Childish pics...

2008-03-14T20:51:00.004+08:00

Was browsing through some of my old old pics just now with my mom...for my bro's childhood photo montage..
It's really fun to look through your old pics..lots of memories will just flood your mind almost instantly..
Seen how cute we were when we were young...seen how much my parents have aged...seen how fashion have changed...and realized how much we've changed...how far we've come..
I realize i was smiling so much back in those days...of cos there's tears too...lots of it...and it's all part of growing up i guess...but how come my smiles have become so awkward???
Hmmmm...

It's been awhile since my family took a picture together...even though i got myself a Dslr...but i didn't really use it on my family...sad to say that...been focusing on the wrong things and neglected wad matter most...my family...
Been really envious on those who have a happy family...but ask myself...am i doing enough to have a happy family??i guess my answer is no...it's not hard yet tricky...matters of human relation is no easy thing to master...i'm trying..i'm learning..

Sick Day

2008-03-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i fall sick...
Last time was a few months back...
Poeple say when one fall ill....they're the most vulnerable...
But i think it's those pple around the ill who feels vulnerable..
simply because these pple like ur mom and dad haf to tahan your nonsense...ur unreasonable request...just because we're sick..recalling the time i was sick when she was around...i was so unreasonable...feels so wrong...expecting her to take care of me...that's so childish of me...
It's not wad to expect but wad u can gif...such simple words but often so hard to do...
So the next time we fall ill...please try to be less unreasonable and less expecting...

P.S. I Love You...

2008-03-05T00:01:00.002+08:00

Just came home after watching P.S. I Love You.
Not wad I've anticipated it to be..but it's still alright...not those movies that u can cry your heart out...in fact there's more funny moments then the heartbreaking scenes...
The Irishman portrait in the film is really nice..very lovable actually..which is why Holly just can't forget him...At the end of everything...it's not about forgetting someone you love...it's about remembering him/her and making sense for everything you do...and moving on as he/she lives in your heart...It takes time and it's painful when you have to realize he/she is never coming back...he/she you held so dearly...and to come to terms with the fact that this chapter of your life has ended...and to turn the page to a whole new chapter...
Tot I saw her on my way back...my heart skipped a beat...maybe it's not her I dunno..the thing is i wanted to step up and approach her..but 3 steps down and i hesitated..mind was blank..and i turn around and walk away...
Maybe i wasn't ready...maybe i still haven't come to terms with myself....maybe i dun wanna see them so blissfully together...maybe it was just my mind playing tricks on me...maybe...just maybe..

P.S. I miss you...

Blurred

2008-03-03T23:28:00.006+08:00

Hafnt been shooting much sunset since last sept...diz was taken by her at Sentosa last sept..was sorting out my pics and realise i can gif it a different feel...so added some touch of blurr to it...turns out ok...
Looking forward to more sunsets AND sunrises...haha..but exams coming..plus other commitments...which is the reason to my shoots recently being more on indoors rather than outdoors where there's plentiful of natural light...
got myself a new lens---tamaron 28-70 f2.8...seems pretty good at the moment..hopefully it'll get better..

At this point in time..i really dunno where i'm heading in terms of my future..everything's still pretty hazy and overcast...will i be doing photography??videography??banking??pilot??traveler??really dun see the answer just yet..can i haf everything??haha..
I seems to be so indecisive at times..but at other times..i'm impulsive..doing things that i may regret later..sometimes i tot i noe myself very well..but many times i feel so lost...i'm ambitious yet overly cautious...sometimes not even doing anything fearing failure will befall..being pessimistically optimistic...i like to plan for the worse..because i dun like to be caught by surprise...such characteristics...M i made for great things..or wilted in the face of obstacles ??
Will my future be bright and sunny..or will it be blurred just like the photo..hmmmm...

Please VOTE!!!

2008-03-02T01:25:00.010+08:00

Be Responsible

Hiv/Aids awareness photography competition
One of the common reason to the widespread of Aids is irresponsibility.
Furthermore, the ability to stay anonymous makes it even tougher to tackle.

If you love your partner, if you love yourself, then do yourself and your partner a favour : Don't leave it to chance and fate, because it only takes one chance to strike the jackpot !

Be responsible for your actions...
Alas, practice safe sex !
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Hey...to all you who is reading this at this moment...if u agree with wad i said and you like this photo..and would like to do a part for raising HIV/AIDS awareness...please go to the following website and vote for me!
you can vote as many times as you like but only 1 per day...
Vote for me !!!

Videography

2008-03-02T01:03:00.002+08:00

Went for my first trial on videography...feels kinda hard..a picture captures the most interesting moment...a video(motion picture) captures a series of such moments..and everything is like happening so fast..unlike photography..where u can at times..hafe the time to perfectly arrange for the perfect angle and stuff..in video..u miss it..once it's gone..very fast..
We went to a client's home in the afternoon..MS wanna do some extras footage..something like special dvds to specific people they want..dedicated specially to them..
Played ard with the cam..real heavy after a while..but it's pretty much the same as dslr..just some difference here and there..
Then in the evening went for an indian dance performance over at Republic Poly..the dancers are pretty gd..i'm not gd enough to critise..but the 2 performance dance like 2 hrs straight..so they must haf pretty gd stamina and memory to memorise all the dance steps..
And i haf some conclusion after watching the dance..tat beatbox...rap...tap dance..all haf some relation to the indian culture..haha..the musicians were like mumbling some stuff which don't sound like anything u noe..upz for the performance..
Overall video is quite interesting and challenging..it's similar yet different from photography..hope can do better soon...

Wen wen wen...

2008-02-27T16:05:00.003+08:00

Well wen...guess you're really enjoying yourself here..first it was my sob stories...now it's the depressing me...i wonder wad else you've got there up your sleeves...
I really wonder...if she noes wad you're doing..
And all these only shows your vulnerability...and the more you do it..the more obvious it is..
If u've so much time to waste your time on me...then y not use it more meaningfully??
I'm sure...from your words..you're quite refine..den dun waste them spitefully on me...
Spent your time on more important stuff..and make her happy...
I think you'll gain so much more than wad you're doing over here..

Wads going on

2008-02-26T22:08:00.005+08:00

Hmmm..wad should i say...
in regards to Wen's request over the tagbox...
There's a few things i wanna clarify...

Never did i once mention her name in my blog...in fact..u were the one who did it...
I only blog abt my feelings and tots...i did not defame anyone of any sorts...

so diz "wen" person cant be just another random passerby rigth??haha...i'm not interested to noe who are you...but just wanna ask you sth..if wad i wrote affects you or her so much..den y did you pple keep on repeatedly come back to my blog??

wen...pen...passerby...wadeva...u noe yourself y u're here reading...and only you noe...i dun judge...and neither shld you..

And if she's affected by wad i said in my blog..which i cannot understand why..cos i nv mention anything bad or wadsoever...and if you're really affected..den haf the respect to tell me yourself..
I really dun understand...y would you be affected..since you've already moved on..................
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Went for my bro's wedding photo shoot...learnt quite a lot of stuff..fun too...the studio is santiago..photographer is sky...and she say she wanna hire me as part time..haha..dunno real or fake...haha..
But seeing how things works...i'm really interested...hope i can get the chance to learn from them...
Finally bought a new wallet..haha..the very funny thing was that there was a wallet with her name printed on it at The Wallet Shop in Marina Square shopping centre..haha..somehow god has a weird sense of humour..haha..

220208

2008-02-23T01:08:00.005+08:00

Tried my hands on TOTO's 10,000,000 draw...haha...din win anything though...
So for those of you who believe in 情场失意。。。赌场得意。。。think twice...maybe thrice...haha..
It brings back some memories of the time when she and i bought toto together...that time was a 5,000,000 draw..and i still rmb i kept smiling just thinking of the possibility of winning that five million..haha..such was the confidence she gave me..with her..i believed i could do all things..haha..and of cos we din win...only got 3 numbers right...but it was fun..haha..

Was watching the movie Juno awhile ago...not a fantastic film..but love juno's attitude..everything seems to work no matter the circumstances..she's brave and knows wad she wants...the film's plot is pretty simple...but there are still lessons we can learn...
The main point to note is "say NO to abortion"
Every baby is an angel godsend...the joy of holding a newborn in your own hands..unbelievable..
So think twice before you couples out there try anything funny....a life's at stake..
And i guess I've learn my mistake...=)

Running

2008-02-20T23:43:00.002+08:00

Been running a lot lately...both physically and emotionally...
running in hope of finding familiar grounds...
been really lost...not knowing wad to do..where to go...
seeking shelter everywhere...

But things have gotten more peaceful these days...ever since she decided to do wad she did...
Still missing her...but at least I'm moving on...
Now trying some videography job..trying to learn as much as i can...especially the human factor..
Was never really good in interacting with people...always wanted to improve on it..but circumstances keeps me away from that goal..
Hopeful diz time round..things will go smoothly..

Been seeing lots of adorable kids these days...really wanna have one..haha...
I've always wanted to settle down early...and seeing these kids..really envy them..hope to have a daughter..haha..hope my wish can come true...

just heard a quote :" If two people were really in love before...they can never be friends again after breakup..at least not in the near future..."
so true...and i was so naive..haha..facing reality hurts...but we have to..and tts life...it sucks..
Let's just hope everyone can be happy...have a good year ahead..

Intruder...

2008-02-16T01:37:00.003+08:00

I dunno y...
but somehow i feel someone is goofing around my accounts..friendster especially...
somehow some of my stuff are gone..haiz..
deleted my pics....
so who ever you are...please stop doing that...
i've done nth wrong and i dun deserve these...
Those pics meant alot to me and some i dun haf backup bcos i just reformatted my com..so please return me those pics!!!!!!
please...they are the only evidence that it really hpn..removing it is like saying nth hpn at all...
PLEASE.........................

2008-02-14T23:44:00.003+08:00

----------Took this earlier today-------------

An empty heart only you can fill...

People may enter and leave your life..
Some may leave quietly...
While others may take your heart away..
So for couples..keep filling this up with love..
Singles..keep searching for the one who can it fill up..
Happy Valentine's Day to all !!!
May all your wishes comes true !!!

V-day

2008-02-14T00:05:00.004+08:00

It's that time of the year...
Where couples spent loving time together...
Where promises are made...
Where red roses cost many times more...
Where chocolates feels so much sweeter...
Where singles look upon in envy...

Yet i spent it alone again ;
Feeling lonely and sour at the same time ;
Missing someone ever more...
Holding closely everything dear ;
Remembering everything i hear...

Wishing you a happy day ;
Hoping i can see the ray...
On a night where stars ablaze ;
This lonely road i walk in daze...

So here i pray...
Couples...never part, always loving...
Married...always close, always happy...
Singles...start looking, try harder...

And for you...
Keep on loving, being in loved...
Always happy, always smiling...
Everything you wished, everything you get...

Wish you all the best !!!